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Remember when you used to joke that you didn’t have a mom

She was more like a friend that was back and forth you had no choice but to play along

Guess I never learned the difference between right and wrong

What’s wrong to you feels normal to me I know I’ll never belong

Just like that girl who doesn’t belong to me, that’s the vibe I stay on

We sing to the best parts and then skip to the next song

Some say it’s a game but to me doesn’t feel like playing

Words not matching actions just means I didn’t understand what you were saying

We’ll try again once you rephrase it

The tears don’t fall because it’s a sunny day, mom told me to save it

I saved them for a rainy day wanted a hug but she wouldn’t embrace it

Back to fake happy dancing alone in the rain, my play pretend

Call it what you want but titles stand for nothing in the end

Consistency is a lie in the mind of a little girl who never stayed on a priority list

You love me today I’m busy preparing for tomorrow when I’m nothing again

See this is how I’m still okay when your big smile fades to a simple grin

I’m grateful for the grin it means you’re still here I’m not disappearing into my head again

She said she wanted to marry me suddenly I’m 5 years old in my dress playing pretend

We dance in the rain together, my heart is finally on the mend

Promised me forever but she’ll break it so I must bend

Save the dates read “one day” with all these words I’ll type but never feel safe enough to send

I smile at the thought I’m no longer alone, she’s holding me close

Take off the dress take off the smile I’m only allowed to grin

It’s time to walk away now but oh.. how she spins 🖤