I hate people they say they love me and lie to my face and make me feel feelings that I was trying to erase
mentally I’m in prison And I’m trying to escape me and my friend had a vision and now I’m finding you fake
everything you ever said, did you really mean it
been hurt so many times I just can’t believe it close friends turned out to be my worst lessons people only treat me right for the wrong reasons.
I just hate when people lie and take advantage of me because they know I don’t leave unless they leave me.
yeah,
you’re supposed to build me up, but why are you damaging me? always blaming it on my family. but don’t ever say. what you don’t mean if you don’t mean what you say
I’m pushing you away but yo I need you to stay. I could die tomorrow so I need you today and life ain’t easy but you gotta push through it everyday and something might happen in the future that you would think never exist
yeah
there’s teens out here cutting through there veins cause they’re in pain. They’re trying to ease all the pain so they do self harm these days because that’s what they think is gonna fix there life that ain’t right let’s change your life.
Let’s put them in the right mindset and make it stop yeah we’re just kids. We don’t understand in our head. We think it’s right, but it’s wrong to do everybody saying we’re crazy but we don’t know what to do. We’re still trying to figure out what life is about. We don’t know what we do in some positions, we need our family to figure something out we think to ourselves what if we weren’t here because we wanna be gone because you think no one would care until you’re gone, but that isn’t true but God gave us this life let’s be grateful for it sometimes I put everybody before me. I think to myself that’s gonna help me. I put it all in my head that I can’t do this, but there’s just one person that told me that I’m worth it and that’s my mom. She’s been with me and went through some things that weren’t right I was so young I could barely remember. but I grew up and I started thinking to myself if I ended it, it would be fine and everyone would be happier, but that isn’t what was right. I was doing self harm when I was 10 and 11 years old pushing to 12 because I thought it was right and I was thinking it was going to get me through my hard times then my mom found out about it. I stopped that moment because she explained to me that it wasn’t right and ever since that day, I haven’t done anything and and I pray to God every night, yeah and let me tell you about this one time when it was one or two in the morning I was crying because I didn’t wanna be here and I prayed and prayed and cried to God and that morning I woke up. I felt happy and I still had a heavy heart, but sometimes you gotta deal with that life is js hard, but, some days you just gotta push through and my thoughts in my head go in circles every single day I get overwhelmed and stress
