Stay awhile

don’t leave yet…

wait—no, ignore that

just… stay

you talk and my head goes quiet

which is weird, I don’t trust that silence

because silence usually means

something’s about to leave me

but you just… stay there

no drama, no performance, no “fixing me”

just existing in the space like

it’s normal to be this calm

and I don’t know what to do with that

it doesn’t match what I know

my brain’s like

“this won’t last”

but my body’s like

“stay here”

and I hate that they don’t agree

stay awhile

don’t do that disappearing thing

don’t turn into a memory

before I even process anything

stay awhile

I don’t even mean it like that deep

I just mean don’t leave

while I finally breathe

because I’m not used to this

someone just… staying

no warning signs

no fading

don’t switch off on me now

don’t go quiet and loud in my head

you make it feel normal again

like I’m not waiting for the end

like I don’t have to overthink

every pause, every blink

and that’s actually kind of dangerous

because I start relaxing into it

and I know myself

I always ruin the good bits

by expecting loss before it hits

but you don’t act like that

you just… talk

like it’s nothing

like it’s not rare

and I hate how much I notice that

I hate how my brain scans for exits

even when there’s no door

I still brace for impact

like it’s coming for sure

stay awhile

don’t turn into a “used to”

don’t become another thing

I look back through

stay awhile

I’m not asking for forever

just don’t make me feel

like I imagined it all together

you make the noise shut up

for once in my head

and that’s honestly

kind of what scares me instead

because I don’t do “safe” well

I do “waiting for it to end”

but you’re just there

not proving me right again

and I don’t know if I trust it

but I don’t want it to stop

don’t make it disappear

don’t turn it into fear

stay awhile

even if it doesn’t mean much

even if it’s just timing

even if it’s just luck

stay awhile

because I don’t get this feeling often

like I can exist

without something dropping

and I won’t say it loud

but it matters more than I show

so just… stay awhile

don’t go slow

don’t fade out on me

don’t become history

don’t make me overthink this

just stay

for now…