Verse 1
Woke up sick from the shit I’ve done
Another sunrise, another loaded gun
Pointed at my head by my own damn hands
Everything I touch turns to broken
Ash in my lungs, blood in my grin
Can’t find a way out, can’t find a way in
People said “change,” but I never could
I burned every bridge in my neighborhood
Pre-Chorus
I’m the ghost at the party
The stain that won’t wash out
The name everybody whispers
When they’re talking about doubt
Chorus
I’m an absolute fuck up
A disaster in skin
Every time I climb out
I fall right back in
I’m an absolute fuck up
A black hole of regret
The kind of mistake
The world’s trying to forget
Verse 2
Got scars where the future was supposed to be
A graveyard of promises buried in me
Every excuse sounds the same these days
Just another lie in a different shape
The mirror don’t blink when it stares me down
Like it already knows I’m about to drown
I’ve been running so long from what I’ve become
Now nowhere feels safe and nowhere feels home
Bridge
Maybe I deserve every door that’s closed
Every goodbye and every overdose
Of guilt and shame that I carry around
Like chains on my neck dragging me underground
Final Chorus
I’m an absolute fuck up
Yeah, that’s all I know
A wildfire soul with nowhere to go
I’m an absolute fuck up
And the worst part is
I can’t tell where the damage ends
And where I begin
Outro
So here’s to the wreckage
Here’s to the blame
Here’s to the bastard
Who ruined his own name
And if there’s a bottom
I’m still falling through
An absolute fuck up
And it’s all I ever knew
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