[Intro – Soft, Broken Voice]
Yeah…
I don’t even know who I’m talkin’ to anymore…
God… myself… or the ghosts that won’t leave me alone.
Why me?
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[Hook]
Why me… why am I still alive?
While they’re buried in the dirt, I’m here askin’ the sky
Every night I close my eyes, but I don’t find sleep
Just a million questions in my chest so deep
Why me… why not take me instead?
Why my people in a coffin while I’m breathin’ this air?
Carryin’ they names like a stone on my back
Tryna move forward but it always drags me back
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[Verse 1]
I still see your faces in the mirror when it fogs
I still hear your voices when I’m talkin’ to God
I still drive past places where we used to hang out
Now it’s flowers on the corner, candles burned out
And I’m stuck here wonderin’ if I did enough
Could I have saved you? Or was life just too rough?
Why am I chosen? Or am I cursed instead?
To be alive with the memories, while you lay dead
It ain’t fair, I ain’t special, I ain’t strong, I ain’t brave
I’m just lost in this maze, draggin’ grief to the grave
And I smile for the world, but I’m dyin’ inside
With a storm in my chest that I’m tryin’ to hide
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[Hook]
Why me… why am I still alive?
While they’re buried in the dirt, I’m here askin’ the sky
Every night I close my eyes, but I don’t find sleep
Just a million questions in my chest so deep
Why me… why not take me instead?
Why my people in a coffin while I’m breathin’ this air?
Carryin’ they names like a stone on my back
Tryna move forward but it always drags me back
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[Verse 2]
Sometimes I think maybe I lived just to suffer
Maybe my punishment’s watchin’ every friend turn to a number
Etched in a stone, a name with two dates
And I’m left with survivor’s guilt I can’t shake
I should be with you, laughin’, growin’, and livin’
Not cryin’ in the dark, beggin’ God for a vision
But He’s silent… and I’m stuck with this ache in my chest
Like I’m waitin’ for a reason that never manifests
So I write these words like I’m bleedin’ on the page
Hopin’ pain turns to purpose when it’s locked in a cage
Maybe I’m here to keep your story alive
To speak your names through the verses when I rhyme
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[Bridge – Whispered]
If I could trade my tomorrow for your yesterday
I would lay in that dirt, and let you walk away
But I can’t… so I’m haunted till the day I fall
Livin’ for you all, even if it kills me all.
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[Final Hook]
Why me… why am I still alive?
While they’re buried in the dirt, I’m here askin’ the sky
Every night I close my eyes, but I don’t find sleep
Just a million questions in my chest so deep
Why me… maybe someday I’ll know
Till then I’ll carry your names everywhere I go
Every rhyme, every breath, every word I speak
I live for the fallen, even though it breaks me.
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[Outro – Soft, Fading Voice]
Yeah…
Why me…
Guess I’ll never know…
DAS
