Why me pt.3

Yeah…

Mm, yeah…

I still see your face when I close my eyes…

Why me, yeah…

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I still see your face when I close my eyes,

I still hear your voice every sleepless night,

Why me? I been searchin’ for a reason,

Watchin’ all my angels turn to demons.

Lost friends, lost fam, can’t replace that,

Tryna smile but the pain keep playin’ back,

Every tear that I drop got a story inside,

I’m alive, but I’m dead in my mind.

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Feelin’ like I’m dreamin’, I don’t wanna wake up,

Pourin’ out pain in a red Solo cup,

Tryna numb my scars but it still bleeds through,

I’m here, but I wish I could be with you.

Time froze when they called my phone,

Said you’re gone, now I’m standin’ alone,

Every night, I replay that scene,

And I’m screamin’ to the sky like — why me?

I done lost too much, but I keep it inside,

Hide my tears behind pride, can’t let ‘em see me cry,

Tell myself, “keep goin’, gotta make it for them,”

But I break every time I read old DMs.

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I still see your face when I close my eyes,

I still hear your voice every sleepless night,

Why me? I been searchin’ for a reason,

Watchin’ all my angels turn to demons.

Lost friends, lost fam, can’t replace that,

Tryna smile but the pain keep playin’ back,

Every tear that I drop got a story inside,

I’m alive, but I’m dead in my mind.

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I been poppin’ pain pills just to feel numb,

But the pain don’t fade, it just play dumb,

Heart cold, yeah, the streets raised one,

But even soldiers cry when the day’s done.

Had dreams we would all see the top,

Now I’m pourin’ up shots for the ones who got dropped,

Can’t lie, I been talkin’ to the sky too much,

Like “God, if you hear me, why you silent so much?”

I don’t wanna be the last one breathin’,

Survivor’s guilt, it got my chest heavin’,

Every name I lost feel like a reason,

But I still can’t tell what the reason’s meanin’.

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(Ohhh)

All these memories cut too deep,

(Yeah)

Every promise they made, I keep,

(Ohhh)

Sometimes I wish it was me instead,

(Yeah)

But I’m livin’ with ghosts in my head…

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I still see your face when I close my eyes,

I still hear your voice every sleepless night,

Why me? I been searchin’ for a reason,

Watchin’ all my angels turn to demons.

Lost friends, lost fam, can’t replace that,

Tryna smile but the pain keep playin’ back,

Every tear that I drop got a story inside,

I’m alive, but I’m dead in my mind.

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Why me… (yeah)

Why me… (ohh)

I’m still breathin’, but I don’t feel free…

Why me…

If you up there, save a space for me…

(echoes fade out over guitar loop)