Inner struggleZ

Just Wanna Live

Happiness is not guaranteed in this life or the next. One thing for sure two for certain. Make the best with what you got. Live and let live. Just another episode straight out outta my mental. Love it or hate it. You'll respect it Real shit shut the fuck up and listen taking you to the next deminsion

(Slow, eerie beat with deep 808s and airy synths)

[Intro] Foil crackle, spark ignite

Crystal clouds fade the light

Fuck the system, fuck this fight

I’m tryna live, not just survive tonight

[Verse 1] Fett in my pocket, foil in my hand

Tooters on deck just to help me withstand

Bongs blow smoke, dab rig glow

Crystal in the chamber when I’m feelin’ too low

Life kickin’ my ass every day on the clock

Bills stacked high, pain don’t ever stop

I’m numb to the world, I’m high in the sky

Tryna leave reality, kiss the bullshit goodbye

[Pre-Chorus] Prayin’ for a better way

‘Cause I’m tired of this same old play

Life ain’t fair, that’s what they say

But I’m still here, gotta find my way

[Chorus] May not be the best choice but it’s our choice, yeah we own it Fuck the system, fuck the voices that keep moanin’

We just tryna cope, stay floatin’, never drownin’

Tired of survivin’, I just wanna start livin’

[Verse 2] Crystal smoke swirl like a galaxy spin

Take another hit just to silence the din

Cops on the block, rent overdue

Pain in my chest, don’t know what to do

Dreams feel small, world too big

Pain in my veins when I pull that rig

Voices in my head say I gotta let go

But I’m stuck in this haze, can’t find my road

[Pre-Chorus] Prayin’ for a better way

‘Cause I’m tired of this same old play

Life ain’t fair, that’s what they say

But I’m still here, gotta find my way

[Chorus] May not be the best choice but it’s our choice, yeah we own it Fuck the system, fuck the voices that keep moanin’

Before you get to walk in my light, you must first walk in my darkness. A strong connection, with loyalty, dependability and a shoulder to lean on is what we a yearn for. This addiction is not a prison, it's a solution to the darkness that we in addiction try to escape. A grip that only can be understood by those who are suffering in the same reality. Pouring out tears no one will see, grasping for the love we all once knew.

We just tryna cope, stay floatin’, never drownin’

Tired of survivin’, I just wanna start livin’

[Bridge] Can’t judge me ‘less you felt this hurt

Can’t fix me with a bible verse

All I got is foil and dreams

All I know is silent screams

But deep inside I still believe

That there’s a way my soul can breathe

Prayin’ hard for somethin’ true

Until that day, I’ll push on through

[Chorus] May not be the best choice but it’s our choice, yeah we own it Fuck the system, fuck the voices that keep moanin’

We just tryna cope, stay floatin’, never drownin’

Tired of survivin’, I just wanna start livin’ [Outro]

Foil crackle, spark ignite

Crystal clouds fade the light

Fuck the system, fuck this fight

I’m tryna live… not just survive tonight