If God Could Bleed

Verse 1]

You met me at the edge of myself

Where the dead things go for help

Bare teeth, black lungs, hands shaking

From all the love I kept wasting

I was a flood with nowhere to go

A bad dream learning how to smoke

Half of me wanted to disappear

The other half just wanted you near

And you…

You looked at me like the wreckage was art

Like broken things still deserved a heart

I still don’t understand that kind of grace

But I drown in it anyway

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Cause every time I try to run

You press your forehead against mine

Like you can hear the war inside

And survive it

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If God could bleed

I think it’d look like me and you

Two ruined souls on borrowed time

Trying to make pain beautiful

And if hell exists

I’ve already touched the flame

It was watching you cry

Knowing I’m the reason you changed

But you still crawl into my arms at night

Still kiss me like I’m worth the fight

Like somehow love can live

Inside a man like this

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I hear the exhaustion in your voice sometimes

The kind that comes from loving too hard

You carry me like a coffin through water

And still call it devotion

And I hate myself for every night

You’ve held me while I lost my mind

Every silence you had to translate

Every wound you didn’t create

You deserve soft things

Morning light

Peaceful sleep

A life untouched by men like me

But you stay here anyway

In this haunted house I call a heart

Lighting candles in the dark

Like you’re trying to teach death how to pray

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So if I collapse beneath the weight

Of every mistake I’ve ever made

Promise me you’ll let the rain

Wash my name away gently

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If God could bleed

I think it’d sound like your heartbeat

Breaking the silence in my chest

When I can’t stand being me

And if love is real

It’s not clean or kind

It’s blood under fingernails

It’s staying when you should’ve left behind

You hold me like a funeral hymn

Like mourning and mercy can coexist

And every time you say my name

It feels like resurrection

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Maybe we were never meant

To survive this world untouched

Maybe love was always supposed

To hurt this much

But if the universe comes for me

If darkness finally swallows me whole

I’ll spend my last breath

Reaching through the void

Trying to find your soul

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And when the earth forgets our bodies

When our shadows finally fade

I hope there’s some abandoned road

Somewhere past the grave

Where you find me again

In the dead of night

And say,

“There you are.”

Like no matter how many times I fall apart

You would always recognize

What’s left of my heart.