All my life, I was the shadow they forgot
The ghost they stepped over, the name they never spoke
The monster they made out of lies and whispers
The outcast they left bleeding in the cold
You poisoned my veins and laughed when I coughed
You buried me deep, thinking I’d stay lost
And I believed you when you said I was nothing
I let the hate eat me alive from the inside out
But now I’m older, and I see the truth
I was dying ‘cause I believed in you
You were the knife, I was the skin
And I let you cut me again and again
People will break you, crush what you love
Steal your soul and call it tough
They’ll never feel the ash in my lungs
They’ll never choke on the words I bit down
So keep your hate — I’ve swallowed worse
I’ve buried dreams and dug my own hearse
You will never fight alone in this war
We’ll bleed together, but we’ll heal no more
I smoke all the time just to get away
Chasing that high, that rush, that fade
It’s the only time the noise in my head
Slows down enough for me to breathe again
Every loss I’ve carried is tattooed on my bones
Every friend turned stranger is a weight I’ve grown
I’ve worn smiles like graves, flowers on the lid
Pretending I was fine while my insides slid
But now I’m older, and I see the truth
You didn’t save me — I crawled through the wounds
You were the fire, I was the fuel
And I let you use me, I played the fool
People will break you, crush what you love
Steal your soul and call it tough
They’ll never feel the ash in my lungs
They’ll never choke on the words I bit down
So keep your hate — I’ve swallowed worse
I’ve buried dreams and dug my own hearse
You will never fight alone in this war
We’ll bleed together, but we’ll heal no more
I’ve lost more than you could count in a lifetime
Held the hands of the dying, knowing I couldn’t save them
Buried pieces of myself I’ll never find again
And you want me to forgive?
You want me to move on?
No.
I’ll wear this rage like armor
I’ll wear these scars like a crown
Because pain is the only thing you gave me that stayed
People will break you, crush what you love
Steal your soul and call it tough
They’ll never feel the ash in my lungs
They’ll never choke on the words I bit down
So keep your hate — I’ve swallowed worse
I’ve buried dreams and dug my own hearse
You will never fight alone in this war
We’ll bleed together, but we’ll heal no more