Wasn’t me

I want to fight, but I can’t

I’m sorry that I can’t

I wish my voice could echo loud

But it fades into the sand

These silent screams I’m screaming

Are lost inside the night

No one listens close enough

To know I’m not alright

I wish I was stronger

I wish I was there

But I’m not, and I’m scared

I’m fal-ling

Into the deep end again

I’ve drowned so many times

Don’t know where I begin

But maybe this song

This ache in my chest

Can reach someone out there

And give them some rest

Even if it couldn’t save me…

I trace the sky from underwater

It’s blurry, it’s far

And every time I reach for hope

It breaks apart like stars

I tried to be louder

But my voice just fades

Now all that’s left

Is the echo of pain

I wish I was more

Than what they see

But I’m lost inside of me

I’m fal-ling

Into the deep end again

I’ve drowned so many times

Don’t know where I begin

But maybe this song

This ache in my chest

Can reach someone out there

And give them some rest

Even if it couldn’t save me…

So if you’re out there

Drowning too

Know someone else

Once felt like you

And maybe these words

Can be your breath

The thing that pulls you

Back from death

We’re fal-ling

But we’re not at the end

There’s music in silence

And healing in friends

So maybe this song

This wound in my voice

Can reach into darkness

And give you a choice

To stay, to breathe…

Even if it wasn’t me