The Breaking Point

I want to fight

But I’m already dead

Not in body—

Just everything else instead

Every thought is a blade

Every breath is a lie

I open my mouth to speak

But nothing comes out but why

There’s blood in the silence

There’s grief in my skin

I keep waking up

But I’m never really in

This world forgot me

Long before I let go

Now the shadows are louder

Than anyone I know

I’m falling

No—I’ve already fallen

I’m screaming

But it’s silent and rotten

I’ve drowned so many times

I breathe water like air

And no one ever asked

If I wanted to be there

But maybe this song

This dying inside of me

Can crawl into someone else’s chest

Before they stop trying to be

Even if it couldn’t save me…

Maybe it saves you

I sat in rooms full of people

And still felt cold

They laughed and talked

While I quietly folded

No one saw the way

I held my breath to feel

Because pain was the last thing

That reminded me I’m real

I wear my skin

Like it doesn’t belong to me

I don’t cry anymore—

Even that feels wrong

I rot with a smile

So they never know

That I died inside

A long time ago

I have fell

Into the black where light won’t reach

I tried to scream

But no one heard me preach

That I was dying

Every single day

And no one ever stopped

To ask if I was okay

But maybe this song

This coffin in my throat

Will wrap around someone else

Before they let go

Even if it couldn’t save me…

Maybe it saves you

If you’re curled on the floor

And no one knows you’re there

If you’re breaking slowly

And no one seems to care

I see you

I was you

I am you

And if this is all I have left to give

Then take it

We all fall sometimes

But don’t fall like I did

Don’t let the world

Erase the child you hid with in

Let this song

Be the voice you never heard

Let it hold you

When no one says a word

I couldn’t save myself…

But maybe it saves you

And if it does…

Then maybe that’s enough

I wanted to fight

But I’m not here anymore

So let

This song knocks on someone’s door