Wasn’t Me

I want to fight, God knows I do

But my hands feel tied and bruised

I reach for strength I never find

And fall beneath the truth

I’m sorry I can’t stand up tall

Sorry I break, sorry I crawl

I try to speak but all I breathe

Are whispers through these walls

And I wish I was brave

Wish I was loud

Wish I didn’t fade

Into the crowd

But here I am, unseen again

Holding in the storm within

I’m fal-ling

Into the deep end of my mind

I’ve drowned so many times

There’s no shore left to find

But maybe this song

This broken, aching cry

Can reach someone else

Before they say goodbye

Even if it couldn’t save me…

Maybe it can save you

I’ve begged the stars for one more light

But they just flicker out

I scream into my pillowcase

Where no one hears me shout

I’ve worn a thousand different masks

To hide the war inside

But every smile I’ve ever faked

Was just a silent cry

And I wish I could change

The way I break

Wish I could feel

Less small, less fake

But I’m sinking slow, and no one sees

The way my soul is on its knees

I’m fal-ling

Into the deep end of my mind

I’ve drowned so many times

There’s no shore left to find

But maybe this song

This broken, aching cry

Can reach someone else

Before they say goodbye

Even if it couldn’t save me…

Maybe it can save you

If you’re lost in the dark

With no map, no spark

If you’re hiding your pain

Behind quiet remarks

Please know you’re not wrong

For feeling too much

For needing to cry

For losing your touch

And if I can’t make it

Let this be my gift

A voice in the void

So you don’t slip

We’re fal-ling

But you don’t have to fade

There’s strength in just breathing

Even when you’re afraid

So take this song

Let it carry you through

I couldn’t save myself…

But maybe it saves you