Still Scared, Still Here

I wake up with doubt on my chest

Like it slept there all night

Every plan that I make

Feels like it’s built out of fright

But I still put my shoes on

Still walk out the door

Even when my mind says

“I can’t do this anymore”

I don’t feel like a hero

I don’t feel strong

I feel like a kid

Just trying to hold on

But somehow I’m breathing

Somehow I’m here

Even with a heart

That’s shaking in fear

I don’t have confidence

I just have courage

And sometimes that’s enough

I’m still scared

But I’m still here

Still walking forward

Through the fear

I don’t have it figured out

But I’m not disappearing now

I’m still scared

But I’m still here

I still doubt

I still fall

But I’m not done after all

I don’t need to feel fearless

To keep moving on

I’m still scared…

But I’m still strong

I used to think healing meant

Never hurting again

But maybe it just means

Learning how to stand

When everything in me

Wants to run

When the past says “hide”

And the future says “come”

I still hear the voice

Telling me I’m weak

Telling me I’ll lose

Before I even speak

But I’m tired of letting

That voice be me

So I’m choosing to stay

Even when I wanna leave

I don’t have the answers

I just have this breath

And I’m not wasting it

I’m still scared

But I’m still here

Still chasing something

I can’t see yet

I don’t know how

This story ends

But I’m not quitting in the middle of it

I’m still scared

Still unsure

Still fighting things

I can’t ignore

But fear doesn’t get

The final word

I’m still scared…

But I’m still here

Maybe strength isn’t never breaking

Maybe it’s putting yourself back

Together one more time

Maybe courage is just staying

When everything inside you

Says “run for your life”

I’m still scared

But I’m still here

Still trying

Even through the tears

I don’t need to be fearless

To belong

I just need to keep holding on

I’m still scared

But I’m not gone

I’m still fighting

Still moving on

Even when my heart feels weak

I’m still here…

And that means something