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I could care less

Because you were careless

With my mind

With your hands

With my heart

In my hands

Full of ash

That spark didn’t breathe until I saw the light in your eyes

How was I to know it was just a reflection of mine?

And all this time you couldn’t see or find

Taught me to be alone again

Even though with you were the best it’s ever been

I can’t let myself go back again

Telling myself told you so

I really should have let you go

When Trust walked out the door

When it got harder than before

Before it got hot and heavy

And it was like the first day you met me

You can forget and assume I forgive

But in memories and small moments is where my grief lives

Every touch, every kiss

So now when you look at me like day 1

I could care less

Because you were careless

With my mind

With your hands

With my heart

In my hands

I still see blood

Even with the waters running red

“Everything is fine” is in your head

You made your bed

Then let others lie with you

I was proud to be yours but you made me a fool

Everyone was right, you used me like a tool

But that’s not me, that’s you

And I won’t level myself out to do what you do

Not when I was always higher than you

In spirit and mind

In body for some time

When I needed to cloud my head

When Tolerance tied me to that bed

I know what I said

I told you the cold was among my biggest fears

Right next to you, but running away from tears

Because you said you didn’t like to see my cry

But wouldn’t change so now that it is goodbye

And I have finally seen you cry

I could careless

Because you were careless

With my mind

With your hands

With my heart

In your hands

It finally passed

I begged and screamed for it

But there is nothing that could compare to it

The love I showed you isn’t dead

It’s just no longer a figment in my head

You tell me now you wish I would fight

I already have and just reached the light

And you could have been by my side

But you weren’t as strong, only as fleeting as the tide

You ran from feeling and pushed your partner away

Where do you get off asking me to stay?

You were a stepping stone, but you can’t say I walked all over you

So now, when you look at me the way you do

Wondering how we broke in two

Wondering how I can be so cold and fine

I’ll say it loud enough for it to stay when you lose your mind

I could care less

Because you were careless