Borrowed Time

Feels like my life’s on fast-forward

While I’m stuck on pause

Everybody’s moving on

I’m still counting scars

I watch my youth in the rearview

Like it owes me rent

I blink and lose another year

I don’t know where it went

I still feel like a kid

With grown-up bills

Trying to find out what I want

And what I will

I keep saying “one day”

Like it’s guaranteed

But tomorrow doesn’t promise

Anything to me

I got dreams on my shelf

Collecting dust

While fear keeps telling me

I don’t deserve much

I keep waiting for the perfect moment to arrive

But perfect moments don’t wait around for lives

Every second that I waste

Is a piece I don’t get back

And I’m scared that I’ll look up

And see nothing but the past

I feel like I’m living on borrowed time

Like the clock keeps ticking in my mind

I don’t know if I’m running or just behind

But I’m scared I’m gonna run out of tries

I feel like I’m living on borrowed time

Every heartbeat sounds like a deadline

I wanna build something before I’m out of time

But I don’t know where to start this life

Everybody asks me

“What you gonna be?”

Like the answer’s easy

Like it’s clear to see

I just wanna be someone

Who doesn’t feel lost

But every road forward

Feels heavy with cost

I see my friends get married

See careers take flight

I’m still fighting demons

Just to sleep at night

I don’t envy their success

I envy their peace

How do you move forward

When you’re still at your knees?

I keep telling myself

“You got plenty of days”

But days turn to months

In a blink of a gaze

I don’t wanna wake up

With regret in my bones

Realizing I spent my life

Just being alone

Every breath that I take

Feels like borrowed air

And I don’t wanna waste it

But I don’t know where

I feel like I’m living on borrowed time

Like the clock keeps screaming in my mind

I don’t know if I’m brave or just terrified

But I’m scared I’m gonna run out of life

I feel like I’m living on borrowed time

Trying to make something out of these nights

I don’t wanna fade before I ever shine

But I’m scared I’m gonna run out of tries

Maybe I don’t need to have it all figured out

Maybe fear just lies when it starts to shout

Maybe growing older doesn’t mean I failed

Maybe I’m still writing every page

I feel like I’m living on borrowed time

But I’m still here and I’m still alive

Even if I don’t know the finish line

I’m gonna keep running for my life

I don’t wanna waste what I still have

Even if I’m scared of what comes next

I’m learning how to live with the past

While I try to build what’s left