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Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I was thirteen when the blue tape snapped
House all quiet but the sirens laughed
Photos on the fridge
Faces cut in half
Blood on the doorframe
Questions I never asked
Sleeping in a shirt that still smelled like her hair
Talking to the ceiling
Thinking God wasn't there
Every birthday candle just smoke in my hands
Every plan I had turned into "never again"
[Chorus]
Now I'm twenty-one
And I'm still here
Raising up a glass for the ones who disappeared
I got scars on my heart
But I dance with the fear
If the clock keeps ticking
I'm gonna live it every year
I'm twenty-one with tomorrow
Turned all of that pain into something I can borrow
From the boy that I was when the world felt hollow
I live loud so the ghosts can follow
[Verse 2]
Used to keep my shoes by the door in a line
Bag half packed like I'd run at any sign
Flinched at fireworks
Tasted copper and dust
Learned how to check every face I should trust
Therapist couch
Words stuck in my teeth
Anger in my chest like a storm underneath
Then one night I drank by their names on the stone
Said "if I waste this life
That's the real headstone"
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
I don't chase the numb
I chase the sunrise
Call my friends back first when we fight
Take the long way home just to feel that drive
Kiss like it's the last
But I still choose life
[low vocal register]
I can't bring you back
But I can bring you with me
In every bad joke
Every split-second risky
[build]
Tears in my throat
But my hands in the sky
If this is all I get
I'm gonna burn it bright
[Chorus]
Details
GeneratedJan 5, 2026
Duration2:44
LanguageEnglish
Style
Moody modern pop with alt-rap edges; sparse piano and distant pads in the verses, low male vocals up close and confessional. Big, anthemic hook with layered gang vocals, wide drums, and warm bass swell. Bridge strips to voice and a single piano note pulse, then everything slams back in for a triumphant final chorus that feels scarred but hopeful.
Credits
Prompt byVirtualSignal968
ModelAria v5
Prompt
Song about a 21 year old who’s learned to live to the fullest based on learning from the pain and trauma from his parents and girlfriend being murdered when he was younger
