[Intro – soft, minimal beat, dark ambient pad]
Packed my life in a westbound dream
Salt in the air, thought it was me
Said “this is it,” said “I’ll be fine”
Watched it fall apart in real time
Came back home, I said my piece
They gave me space, they gave me peace
They held me up when I gave way
I hate I had to lean on stay
[Pre-Chorus – tension builds, light percussion enters]
I know this feeling, I’ve felt it close
Right before everything I had broke
[Chorus – full beat drop, punchy bass, emotional delivery]
Why am I scared to get better?
Why does it feel like a threat?
Every time I try to weather
I’m bracing for what hasn’t happened yet
I should be fine, I should be good
Doing exactly what I said I would
So why does it feel like the end
Every time I try again?
[Verse 2 – beat pulls back slightly, controlled vocal]
Measure doses, get it right
Every number black and white
Second start syndrome creeps and climbs
I feel that panic right on time
Hands too steady, mind too loud
Trying not to let them down
Every choice is make or break
There’s no room for one mistake
[Pre-Chorus – rebuild tension, layered vocals]
I know this feeling, I’ve felt it close
Right before everything I had broke
[Chorus – stronger than first, added layers/harmonies]
Why am I scared to get better?
Why does it feel like a threat?
Every time I try to weather
I’m bracing for what hasn’t happened yet
I should be fine, I should be good
Doing everything I said I would
So why does it feel like before
Every time I try for more?
[Bridge – stripped down, almost no beat, raw vocal]
I don’t wanna almost make it
Say I tried then watch it cave in
Again, again—I can’t go through
Another version of “I almost do”
If this falls the way it did
I don’t know what’s left of me
[Final Chorus – biggest drop, full intensity, slight vocal strain]
Why am I scared to get better?
Why does it feel like a threat?
Every time I try to weather
I’m bracing for what hasn’t happened yet
I should be fine, I should be good
Doing everything I said I would
So why does it feel like the end—
Like I’m not strong enough to mend?
[Outro – beat fades, ambient echo, unresolved tone]
Arachnitech
