I understand it now

I swear i ain’t been this way in awhile now,

I hate that when I give them attention I find out,

that there is something they hiding,

My ears never be lying, the truth-will set you free, but please-I can’t be bothered, to do-something for free,

Release-your hand upon it,

The peace-is what I sponsor,

Can’t stand the weight that’s on me, it’s all weighing heavy on me,

But if I choose I’m the problem,

Then it falls on me.

Look……….

It’s freezing rain, the things I overcame, that process left me drained, damn,

But ion be tripping cause I know that I’ll be danged,

To let them redirect my route to wealthy and insane,

I know you understand what I’ve been building with this pain,

I don’t have no time to flex, lemme get my check,

So I can skate,

I don’t wannna buckle down and lie like I accept my fate,

But it takes some time, open up your mind,

It’s time to practice patience,

Yeah,

Look,

What it do?

What happened dawg, I thought you wanted to be young and dangerous,

It’s obviously-not, what we were taught in education,

But now I see that someone else got paid for my frustrations….

What happened dawg I thought that you wanted the real shit?

It gets different when you fall for the things that you used to,

From the ones that always treated you bad and abused you?

You tried to take it back and retract it as usual,

And it’s all because they-told you they need you……….

I wanted love not hate.