Loop I Can’t Break (Haze Edit)

(whispers layered)

Just five more minutes…

I’ll start in the morning…

It’s fine… I’m fine…

Alarm goes off, but I’m already awake

Mind running laps I didn’t ask it to take

Checklist growing like vines on the wall

But I scroll, scroll, scroll—ignore it all

Coffee gets cold, books still closed

Tell myself “focus,” but nobody knows

It’s like my brain’s got a mind of its own

And I’m stuck outside it, pacing alone

I swear I’ll start after this

Just one more thing, I won’t miss

But the hours slip like sand in my hands

And I don’t understand

I’m caught in a haze I helped create

Trying to focus, but I’m running late

Light it to quiet the noise in my head

But it comes back louder instead

I say I’ll change, yeah I mean it this time

But the cycle repeats like a bad design

Clear for a moment, then drift away

I lose the whole day

(Haze… haze… fade away…)

(Start now… now… now…)

Notes on the desk, highlighter lines

Anatomy terms I’ve read four times

But nothing sticks, it fades to grey

Like my thoughts are wrapped in a smoky haze

I feel the pressure building up

Future’s heavy in my cup

Vet tech dreams, but what if I fail?

What if I’m not enough to prevail?

I say I’ll change, yeah I mean it this time

But the cycle repeats like a bad design

Clear for a moment, then drift away

I lose the whole day

I know what I want, I know what it takes

But I keep getting lost in the choices I make

Not lazy, just tangled, pulled every way

Trying to fight through the fog in my brain

I’m caught in a haze but I’m still awake

Starting to see every move that I make

Maybe it’s messy, maybe it’s slow

But I don’t wanna stay here no more

I say I’ll change—maybe small, maybe late

But I won’t keep feeding the weight

One clear step, even if it’s delayed

I won’t fade away

(soft echoes)

Just one step…

Cut through the haze…

Right now… not someday…