Some nights…
the monster feels closer than my dreams.
The easy escape
sounds like peace.
But somewhere out there —
lives need healing.
And if I don’t stay strong…
I’ll never reach them.
I got dreams bigger than the haze
Long roads, brighter days
Navy scrubs calling my name
I won’t let them fade
Slow down, breathe in
Clear mind, begin
But some nights it returns
That hole deep in my chest
Heavy waves pull me down
That sinking heart without a sound
Like something missing deep inside
A quiet space I try to hide
Every cloud slows me down
Every high spins around
From the path I chose to take
For the lives I want to save
So breathe in, hold on
Through the weight, stay strong
When the dark pulls apart
That hole inside my heart
Monster in my smoke, in the air
Whispers saying no one cares
Dancing with the monster, pulling close
But it won’t devour my soul
Monster in my smoke, hear me now
I won’t fade into the cloud
Monster in my smoke, hear me say
I won’t drift away
Sometimes smoke sharpens sight
Helps me focus late at night
Screen glow, quiet room
Concepts cutting through the gloom
But the line is razor thin
Tool or monster living in
If I slip, lose control
It could swallow all my goals
Little steps cutting back
Finding strength on this track
Every day clearer mind
Closer now to the climb
Walking that line, staying close
Dancing with the monster in my smoke
Artist soul still alive
Color dreams still inside
Even when sadness starts
Digging holes in my heart
When the silence grows too loud
And the pressure pulls me down
That hole opens in my heart
Trying to tear me apart
But I hear the future calling
Through the storm and through the smoke
Lives need healing, I know
And I won’t let go
Monster in my smoke, in the air
Whispers saying no one cares
Dancing with the monster, pulling close
But it won’t devour my soul
Monster in my smoke, hear me now
I won’t fade into the cloud
Monster in my smoke, hear me say
I won’t drift away
Late night, breathe slow
Heavy heart letting go
That hole starts to close
Monster in the smoke fading slow
I’m stronger the more I know
Arachnitech
