Piece of peace

I know I don't need you. No it doesn't matter to the hole in my chest you left. Pleading my heart is Pleading with my brain. Your memory strains my mind. The only time I find a little piece of peace. Is at the end of another bottle. Just when I thought your lease in my heart was up you have one more month. Drunk to ease the pain of going to sleep without my arms wrapped around you. All I think about is what we could have had. My idea of our happily ever after. Drives me crazy Drives me mad. Down down bad not having you by my side. I see your memory's ghost all around. It's like there is no escape. This heart break is more than I can take. I fake that I am okaayy but that couldn't be further from the truth. Dayy in dayy's end I think the time without you only magnifies the pain. I can't just forget all the the good times. Tasting your tan lines. You along with that white lace thong will always be on my mind. I am a slave to your memory. Your love was a drug. How I would feel ecstasy and how it would numb all my other senses. No matter what I try. You are always my clear stary skies. How can you be so cold. I couldn't believe how I used to see paradise staring in to your eyes. I don't know what is worse. Not having you or not hearing those 3 words. You knew exactly how to play my heart cords. You were my everything I was just your play thing. I knew the role I was supposed to play. You and I know we couldn't be just friends. I wasn't happy with the few benefits. I wanted all of you since you been gone. My body craves your body on me.I was captivated by the waterfalls. Was held captive by the grip. Crawling up the walls.