Shadow

She said she loves me but I know better..Drowning unable to keep my head above water. Sleep yeah I am trying to but,can't without you in my room. Another night goes by and again my heart cries. My life without you has me falling apart apart at the seams. In my dreams you're there but when I wake up to this nightmare. Its a hell I can't bare stare at the stars at night. I am reminded how your eyes use to shine just as bright. Fighting back these feelings filling up on the liquor. Praying I wake-up to ah better tomorrow. I don't believe when she says ( I love you). My new friend's identity is misery. Drink the whiskey to numb the blow I'm going home alone. Wishing I could go back to when we took my phone's lock screen. Drink the whole top shelf to comfort this cold hell of a empty bed. Ohhh hooowwww I want you next to me. Even though I know it's a one sided fantasy. I know you don't believe it or mean it when you say (I love you). I know it wasn't real but this pain is. My lips cry out for your kiss. My hands Ballin for your hips. Going through all of it. Just for you not to feel the same. I wish I could kick the need but you are like a drug. I can't ever ever quit. Yeah I am a goner her love has me going through withdraws. I threw every bit of me in the relationship. I did all that just to get thrown away. I should have known. You could not be redeemed. I held out hope I would find some good. But I found none. Feelings for me I know you got none, and I got Noone besides the man inside the mirror. I love her but she doesn't love me. I am looking at the sky asking why. Why can't we live in my land of make believe. I leave bottles empty trying to escape your shadow.