Sad times

It’s quiet in the house, but my head’s too loud

Every word I said keeps running me down

I see your face when I slammed that door

Like I didn’t care, like you didn’t matter anymore

You’re younger than me, but you see too much

I played it cool, said I didn’t give a f—

Now I’m stuck here replaying the scenes

Wishing I was better than the worst parts of me

Pre-Chorus

I thought being tough meant I had to be cold

Didn’t know I was breaking something I should hold

Chorus

I’m sad ‘cause I wasn’t nicer to my brother

Payton, I should’ve been there, should’ve been better

I let my anger talk, let my pride win

Now I’m drowning in the words I never said to him

If I could go back, I swear I’d change it

Be the one you trust, not the one you’re afraid of

Yeah, I’m sad ‘cause I wasn’t nicer to my brother

And I gotta live with that tonight

Verse 2

You laughed it off, said “it’s all okay”

But I know those things don’t just fade away

I was hurting too, but that’s no excuse

I put my pain on you, that wasn’t fair to do

I should’ve protected you, not pushed you away

Should’ve been your shield, not the reason you changed

Now I see you growing, moving on fast

And I’m stuck wishing I could rewrite the past

Chorus

I’m sad ‘cause I wasn’t nicer to my brother

Payton, I should’ve been there, should’ve been better

I let my anger talk, let my pride win

Now I’m drowning in the words I never said to him

If I could go back, I swear I’d change it

Be the one you trust, not the one you’re afraid of

Yeah, I’m sad ‘cause I wasn’t nicer to my brother

And I gotta live with that tonight

Bridge

Maybe it’s not too late to say I’m sorry

Maybe healing starts with honesty

I don’t wanna be another scar in your story

I just wanna be the brother you need

Outro

So if you hear this someday, just know it’s true

I’m trying to be better, starting with you

I can’t change the past, but I can change me

Hope one day you’ll see the love I couldn’t speak