Three Words

These are the thoughts

That I don’t speak

The ones that keep me weak

The whispers and lies

Telling me to die, you see I am

worth more dead

Than alive and that’s a fact

Don’t be sad

I don’t even react, the feeling

Of loss a burden

I can’t shake, admitting your gone

A pill I can’t take

You see, mom sees you in the

Cardinals that

Visit sometime, it’s such a

Beautiful lie

That i thought over time would

Heal me, but it

Continues to destroy me

With every waking moment every

Pointless notion

Every fucking solace spent in torment

I’m steady starring down this barrel

Slipping further

Into pearl, screaming for silence as this

Fucking violence

Whispers my name and taunts my shame

Three words, is all it

Took, now I’m left with this final vow

I miss you dad

I hope to see you again, somehow

This monster in

Me, remains dormant, three words is all

It took to steal

My happiness and tighten this noose

Keeping it from

Ever coming loose, I’m silent, as the

Violent thoughts rage

Up inside this cage called my mind

As I’m trying to

Find a switch to engage the light

To end this night

My wife says to speak to you, I know

You so well, I’d know

What you would say, but that kind of

Forgiveness, isn’t

Coming this day

you see time is a lie

There’s never enough

I’m steady starring at my hour glass

Calling its bluff

God it’s been tough, and i feel I’m

All out of luck

And I don’t wanna pass this buck

On to my kids