She‘s still

Black jeans, cold hands, heart full of static

Phone lights up but I never answer

I been talking to ghosts in my own head

Every promise I make just gets shattered

Cigarette burns on my favorite hoodie

Smells like nights I don’t remember

I smile in pics but I’m barely breathing

Every season feels like December

I don’t wanna be saved

I just wanna feel something real

If love is a drug, I been overdosed

Still chasing the high that kills

I’m falling slow, no one hears the sound

Screaming inside but I don’t make a sound

Tell me you’re here, then you fade somehow

Everybody stays, everybody leaves me now

I’m fucked up, yeah, I know it’s true

Dark thoughts when I think of you

Hold me close, then you cut me loose

I keep bleeding just to feel you

Late night drives with the windows down

City lights look like heaven’s closed

I keep texting things I never send

‘Cause loving me always comes with a ghost

I don’t sleep, I just drift away

Between the pills and the memories

If I die young, don’t romanticize

I was just tired of hurting deep

They say time heals pain

But mine just learned how to hide

I been lost since seventeen

Still waiting on a sign

I’m falling slow, no one hears the sound

Screaming inside but I don’t make a sound

Tell me you’re here, then you fade somehow

Everybody stays, everybody leaves me now

I’m fucked up, yeah, I know it’s true

Dark thoughts when I think of you

Hold me close, then you cut me loose

I keep bleeding just to feel you

If I disappear tonight

Don’t say you didn’t know

I left my heart in every song

That I was too scared to show