Mess in My Head

I had the best of the worst sides

And lungs full of second tries

Too many flash-fires burning through my chest

Yeah, I’m alive, but barely at best

Spent all my youth on LED dreams

Built my soul inside a screen

Now I’m twenty-something, chasing sleep

In a loop I can’t delete

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You say, “You ain’t you when you’re like this,”

This ain’t you, and you know it

But ain’t that just the point?

I don’t know how to let go — no

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I’m a mess inside,

But I could always be

Whatever you wanted, just not what you need

And maybe I need it — yeah, I need it

Lying’s the only rush I feel, believe it

Life sucks and I’m losing my mind

Can you tell me the time?

I’m just waiting to die —

Yeah, I’m just waiting to die

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I draw my tears in material things

Spent my faith on dopamine

All my songs start to sound the same

Every word a different cage

Manic, damn it — here we go again

Every thought becomes a friend

Whispering “You’ll never change,”

And maybe they’re right this time

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[Bridge] (Soft glitch echo, ambient synth build)

I’m so tired of being tired of me

Of drowning in simplicity

They say ignorance is bliss —

Then why’s the silence killing me?

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I’m a fucking mess sometimes

But still, I could always be

Whatever you wanted, but not what you need

Especially when you stop believing me

Life sucks and I’m losing my mind

Can you tell me the time?

I’m just waiting to die

Yeah, I’m just waiting to die

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[Outro] (Soft hum, static fade)

(whispered)

I’m a mess in my head…

but it’s all I’ve got left.