Drinking & Dreaming

[Verse 1]
I’ve been drowning in a bottle just to shut your fucking voice out of my head,
Every swallow’s just a bandage on the shit you left unsaid.
But the moment that I close my eyes, you’re crawling back under my skin,
Like a bad habit I can’t kill, like a goddamn sin I keep living in.

[Pre-Chorus]
I swear I’m fine until the night starts creeping through,
Every drink’s a cheap excuse to forget I still want you…

[Chorus]
But I still dream just to remember you,
Still drive fast just to feel something brutally true.
Got the pedal down, heart beatin’ black and blue,
Chasing ghosts in the rearview.
And I still run just to prove I’m not a mess,
Still tell myself that I don’t need your bullshit tenderness—
But every road I take leads back to you,
Every lie I tell myself feels brand-new…
Still dream just to remember you.

[Verse 2 — Screamed]
I’VE BEEN RUNNING FROM THE SHIT
THAT YOU CARVED INTO MY CHEST,
EVERY MEMORY LIKE A BULLET
THAT WON’T LET MY GODDAMN SOUL REST.

YOU LEFT YOUR HANDS AROUND MY HEART
LIKE A VICE I CAN’T UNDO—
AND I’VE BEEN TEARING OUT THE PIECES
JUST TO FEEL LESS LIKE I’M STILL YOURS TOO.

I’M A FUCKING TRAIN WRECK CRASHING
THROUGH THE PLACES WE USED TO LIVE,
AND EVERY MILE I PUT BETWEEN US
JUST REMINDS ME WHAT I DID.

I TELL MYSELF I’M BETTER,
BUT I KNOW THAT’S JUST A LIE,
’CAUSE YOUR GHOST IS IN MY REARVIEW
AND IT NEVER FUCKING DIES.

[Pre-Chorus — harsher vocal / cleans blending]
Freedom tastes different when the price is losing you—
And every mile just drags out truth I never wanted to be true…

[Chorus]
’Cause I still dream just to remember you,
Still drive fast just to feel something painfully true.
Got the pedal down, heart beatin’ black and blue,
Chasing ghosts in the rearview.
And I still run just to keep my ass alive,
Still act like I don’t miss the way you fucked my life—
But every road I take leads back to you,
Every lie I tell myself feels brand-new…
Still dream just to remember you.

[Bridge]
Maybe love was a cage, and I’m the asshole who broke the lock,
Maybe freedom ain’t freedom when the quiet hits like a shock.
I keep fighting like a dumb bitch trying not to care,
But the more I shove you out, the more I swear you’re everywhere…

[Breakdown]
[soft → brutal]
You’re the ghost I keep chasing,
The wound I can’t stop tracing,
The fucking storm I’m facing—
I still see you…

[Final Chorus]
I still dream just to remember you,
Still drive fast just to feel something vicious and true.
Got the pedal down, heart beatin’ black and blue,
Chasing ghosts in the rearview.
Yeah, I still run though I’m barely holding on,
Still act like I’m not pissed you’re gone—
But freedom don’t numb me like you used to do…
So I drink to forget you,
And I dream…
Just to remember you.

Moody metalcore, dreamy guitars, ambient synths, emotional male vocals, cinematic choruses, heartache vibes, dreamy pads