Clean and Serene

I used to chase the numb, then wake up in the wreck

Stale breath on my tongue, shame sittin' on my neck

Hands shook in the morning, heart tapped out of time

Countin' all the dead days, penny by penny, dime by dime

I had a bag in my pocket and a hole in my soul

Tried to stuff it with the poison till it swallowed control

But I seen too much heartbreak in my own reflection

Now I’m learnin’ how to live with a new direction

I’m clean, I’m clean, I’m clean, I’m free

God is good, and He still believe in me

I can do this, yes I can, watch me breathe

I’m worth it, I’m worth it, I’m made to be

Clean, clean, clean, I’m free

God is good, and He still believe in me

I can do this, yes I can, watch me breathe

I’m worth it, I’m worth it, I’m made to be

No more blackouts or hangovers in the mornings, no more sweepin' up regret

No more chasin' after shadows just to pay a debt

I keep water in the fridge, keep my people on speed dial

Keep my eyes on the road, keep my steps a little while

"How you been?" "I'm better." "You sure?" "Yeah, I’m stayin'."

"Seen him at the corner?" "Nah." "He been prayin'?"

"Got a job now?" "Got one." "Good." "He lookin' thinner."

"Still with the meetings?" "Every week." "Man, look at you, winner."

I’m clean, I’m clean, I’m clean, I’m free

God is good, and He still believe in me

I can do this, yes I can, watch me breathe

I’m worth it, I’m worth it, I’m made to be

Clean, clean, clean, I’m free

God is good, and He still believe in me

I can do this, yes I can, watch me breathe

I’m worth it, I’m worth it, I’m made to be

When the old pull calls my name

I answer with a different flame

One step, one prayer, one hard-earned day

I don't have to run, I can stay

I can stay

I can stay just for today

I’m clean, I’m clean, I’m clean, I’m free

God is good, and He still believe in me

I can do this, yes I can, watch me breathe

I’m worth it, I’m worth it, I’m made to be

Clean, clean, clean, I’m free

God is good, and He still believe in me

I can do this, yes I can, watch me breathe

I’m worth it, I’m worth it, I’m made to be

My feelings are valid, recovery mixes me around like an emotional salad but I don’t give up and I don’t pick up no matter what

finally my door to the devil has been shut.

Clean clean clean I’m free

I’m clean and serene.