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This sucks but I did it to myself

I saw the red flags I saw the signs that showed and told me

You had already checked out

But I ignored the warnings

the signals and signs before me

what the hell is wrong with me?

To blind to see

That I’m a king

and my love can be to strong

Much to strong

for a little bitty worker bee

I definitely cast my pearls before the swine

immm

just heart broken

My love for you is way more than just devotion

It’s ALL of my energy ALL of my inner me

ALL of my focus

ALL of my strengths

weakness, imperfections, incompleteness its hope when I’m hopeless

without you it’s like like no breath I’m choking..

But that’s how I feel

I never asked you how you feel

Or if this is really real cause I must have missed something

I can never just throw away all that we’ve been through

never turn my back on you

over react on you shake you pump fake and break you

What in the world could make you

behave so hateful this is so hurtful

I almost feel like I hate

And I don’t want to love you anymore…

But how can I do that? ….id already be doing it if I knew that, I just want to run I just want to be done I just want to be through, I wish I never knew you I guess you want random dudes in your bedroom don’t you??

I thought you loved me

I thought you liked me

but the truth is YOU GASSED ME HYPED ME fazzed tazzed and played me

and I don’t want to love you anymore

I don’t want to touch you anymore

I don’t want to hug you any more

I don’t want to fuck you anymore

I CANT BELIEVE THIS SHIT

all these years of my loyalty for you to just leave this quick

leaves me sick and gutted these butterflies in my stomach when imagine you in public doing you with out me I’m plagued with unanswered questions that I don’t really want the answers too

You looked me dead I’m my eyes and said I’d never leave you

Made me believe you

That was just, that was just that was just pure fucking evil if nothing else what did I teach you never abandon your people I’m see through I need you….

I guess it’s like the rich man swallowing the bolder swallowing the gnat

struggling trying to climb through the eye of the needle

I guess I gotta face it and accept all the time wasted and I don’t want to love you anymore

I guess I gotta face it and accept ALL This time waisted and I don’t want to love you anymore

ohhhh no I just can’t love you anymore.

I don’t want to