I believe

Is Heaven real?

I believe but I don’t feel

I make mistakes and somehow still

Keep waking up and climbing hills

I stumble and fall almost every day

Some nights I don’t even wanna pray

But then I reach out anyway

And somehow You still make a way

Where do I even begin?

Fighting the same battles again

Repent, repeat, try to be better

Then wonder if I’ll ever get there

Cause some days faith feels easy…

Some days it feels like work

I believe… (belieeeve)

Even when I can’t see it

Even when the silence gets loud

And my heart can’t seem to feel it

I believe… (belieeeve)

Even when I’m questioning everything

Maybe faith isn’t knowing for certain…

Maybe it’s trusting anyway

What can I say that You don’t know?

You see every place I won’t let show

Every fear, every hidden scar

Every time I wondered where You are

And maybe that’s the part I miss

Thinking faith means never doubting this

But every hero in the stories struggled too

So maybe doubt doesn’t separate me from You

Maybe grace is bigger than I think

Maybe that’s why I haven’t sunk

Cause every time I hit the ground…

Somehow I get back up again

I believe… (belieeeve)

Even when I can’t see it

Even when the silence gets loud

And my heart can’t seem to feel it

I believe… (belieeeve)

Even when I’m questioning everything

Maybe faith isn’t knowing for certain…

Maybe it’s trusting anyway

(drums drop, piano and ambient pad only)

I don’t have all the answers…

I never will

But every time I let go…

You catch me still

I believeeee…

Not because I’ve figured it all out

Not because I’ve never been afraid

Or never lived with doubt

I believeeeee…

Because somehow through every fall

When I thought I couldn’t stand again…

I believeeeeeeee

Is Heaven real?

I still believe…..

(Whispered and vulnerable)

I believe…