Still Waiting For The Door

Verse 1

The tree is lit, but not for me

Just blinking like it’s tired too

They say it’s Christmas Eve again

I think I knew that once, I do

There’s paper snow taped to the glass

Someone baked, the hallway smells sweet

I smile so they don’t worry

I’ve gotten good at being easy

Pre-Chorus

I don’t want to take up space

I don’t want to need too much

I just sit here by the window

With my hands folded in my lap

Chorus

I’m still waiting for the door

For a knock, for my name

I don’t need the whole family

Just someone who remembers my face

They’re busy building Christmas

Somewhere far away

I tell myself it’s fine

But I’m still waiting… anyway

Verse 2

My children have their own lives now

Lights, laughter, plates too full

I see them in the ornaments

If I look long enough, I almost do

They said they’d call when they had time

Time feels different where I am

I don’t blame them, not at all

I just miss holding someone’s hand

Pre-Chorus

If I forget what day it is

Please don’t think I don’t feel

Loneliness doesn’t need a memory

It knows how to stay real

Chorus

I’m still waiting for the door

For a voice I used to know

I don’t need to be the center

Just don’t let me be the ghost

They’re singing songs without me

That I taught them long ago

I smile when they say “maybe soon”

And I let it go

Bridge

There’s a nurse who calls me family

She fixes my collar, tucks me in

She sits with me when it’s too quiet

Like I still belong somewhere

If love could count as blood

I wouldn’t be alone in here

Final Chorus

I’m still waiting for the door

But I’m not invisible

Someone lights a candle just for me

And suddenly the room feels full

If this is all the Christmas

That I get this year

Tell the world I was loved at the end

I was here

Outro

If you pass this place tomorrow

And wonder who we are

We’re someone’s mother

Someone’s father

Still watching from afar