Verse 1
The tree is lit, but not for me
Just blinking like it’s tired too
They say it’s Christmas Eve again
I think I knew that once, I do
There’s paper snow taped to the glass
Someone baked, the hallway smells sweet
I smile so they don’t worry
I’ve gotten good at being easy
Pre-Chorus
I don’t want to take up space
I don’t want to need too much
I just sit here by the window
With my hands folded in my lap
Chorus
I’m still waiting for the door
For a knock, for my name
I don’t need the whole family
Just someone who remembers my face
They’re busy building Christmas
Somewhere far away
I tell myself it’s fine
But I’m still waiting… anyway
Verse 2
My children have their own lives now
Lights, laughter, plates too full
I see them in the ornaments
If I look long enough, I almost do
They said they’d call when they had time
Time feels different where I am
I don’t blame them, not at all
I just miss holding someone’s hand
Pre-Chorus
If I forget what day it is
Please don’t think I don’t feel
Loneliness doesn’t need a memory
It knows how to stay real
Chorus
I’m still waiting for the door
For a voice I used to know
I don’t need to be the center
Just don’t let me be the ghost
They’re singing songs without me
That I taught them long ago
I smile when they say “maybe soon”
And I let it go
Bridge
There’s a nurse who calls me family
She fixes my collar, tucks me in
She sits with me when it’s too quiet
Like I still belong somewhere
If love could count as blood
I wouldn’t be alone in here
Final Chorus
I’m still waiting for the door
But I’m not invisible
Someone lights a candle just for me
And suddenly the room feels full
If this is all the Christmas
That I get this year
Tell the world I was loved at the end
I was here
Outro
If you pass this place tomorrow
And wonder who we are
We’re someone’s mother
Someone’s father
Still watching from afar
BLACKLARK
