[Verse 1]
I used to break so easily,
Now nothing hits the same.
My heart is full of thunder,
But it never makes a flame.
I’m drowning in the chaos,
But my body stays still—
Like every pain I’m carrying
Has worn down my will.
[Chorus]
’Cause I feel so much
I can’t feel anything.
Every tear I used to cry
Got lost in everything.
I’m tired of the hurting,
But I’m terrified to heal—
I feel so much
I can’t remember how to feel.
[Verse 2]
People ask me how I’m holding up,
I say I’m doing fine.
But the truth is just a silence
I can’t put into a line.
I’m screaming on the inside,
But no sound ever leaves—
My heart is beating loudly
In a place that never bleeds.
[Chorus]
’Cause I feel so much
I can’t feel anything.
Every tear I used to cry
Got lost in everything.
I’m tired of the hurting,
But I’m terrified to heal—
I feel so much
I can’t remember how to feel.
[Bridge]
Maybe numb is just the body’s way
Of saying it’s too much—
A shield against the memories
I’m too scared to touch.
[Final Chorus]
So I feel so much
I can’t feel anything.
I keep waiting for the moment
When the numbness starts to sting.
But until the world breaks open,
This is all that’s real—
I feel so much
I can’t remember how to feel.