Too Much To Feel Anything

I used to break so easily,

Now nothing hits the same.

My heart is full of thunder,

But it never makes a flame.

I’m drowning in the chaos,

But my body stays still—

Like every pain I’m carrying

Has worn down my will.

’Cause I feel so much

I can’t feel anything.

Every tear I used to cry

Got lost in everything.

I’m tired of the hurting,

But I’m terrified to heal—

I feel so much

I can’t remember how to feel.

People ask me how I’m holding up,

I say I’m doing fine.

But the truth is just a silence

I can’t put into a line.

I’m screaming on the inside,

But no sound ever leaves—

My heart is beating loudly

In a place that never bleeds.

’Cause I feel so much

I can’t feel anything.

Every tear I used to cry

Got lost in everything.

I’m tired of the hurting,

But I’m terrified to heal—

I feel so much

I can’t remember how to feel.

Maybe numb is just the body’s way

Of saying it’s too much—

A shield against the memories

I’m too scared to touch.

So I feel so much

I can’t feel anything.

I keep waiting for the moment

When the numbness starts to sting.

But until the world breaks open,

This is all that’s real—

I feel so much

I can’t remember how to feel.