[Title: The Tarot & The Bible] [Style: Folk], [Indie-Folk], [Dark Folk], [Confessional], [Acoustic], [Haunting] [Instrumentation: Acoustic Guitar (Minor Key, Fingerpicked), Cello, Reverb-heavy Ghostly backing vocal, No drums] (Music Starts: A single acoustic guitar, fingerpicking a slow, sad, minor-key pattern. A low cello note swells and holds. [Vibe: Bon Iver / Phoebe Bridgers]) (Verse 1) [Music Tag: Whispered, Intimate Lead Vocal, Close-Mic Vocals] The house is quiet, the kids are in bed The old, familiar doubt creeps in my head (Ad-lib: What's he doing... will he come back...) I know I should pray, I know I should fast I know the promises of God will last But my hand, it shakes, and it reaches for The login to that site, 'cause I'm not sure. (Chorus) [Music Tag: Music stays sparse, vocals are doubled with a whisper] Oh, I don't know why I keep doing it This hunger for a "sign" Reading the stars, guessin' the end 'Stead of just knowing You are mine I got the Tarot and the Bible Sittin' side-by-side on my shelf One tells me to wait on God The other one... I can do myself. (Verse 2) [Music Tag: Sad, Honest Delivery] It's the "quick fix" for the "what if" (Ad-lib: That old trauma...) It's the fear of falling off the cliff It's the "gut feeling" gone astray My "sensitivity" just... led the wrong way It's the "control" I never had (Ad-lib: That little girl, so scared and sad...) The psychic gives me answers now And God just whispers "wait, somehow." (Chorus) [Music Tag: Cello becomes more melodic, more painful] Oh, I don't know why I keep doing it This hunger for a "sign" Reading the stars, guessin' the end 'Stead of just knowing You are mine I got the Tarot and the Bible Sittin' side-by-side on my shelf One tells me to wait on God The other one... I can do myself. (Bridge) [Music Tag: Music drops to just the guitar. Vocal is almost spoken.] It's a false idol, I know the truth It's a betrayal of the faith I found in my youth (Ad-lib: That Camp Krislund heart...) I'm searchin' for a map, 'cause I'm so scared That all my roads just lead nowhere But I'm so tired... I'm so tired of this game (Music swells...) Lord, I'm ready to just call Your name! (Final Chorus - Louder, more desperate) Oh, help me stop, I'm done doing it! This hunger for a "sign"! I'm deleting the bookmark, I'm choosing myself! I'm throwin' out the doubt, and keepin' the Bible! I'm trusting You, my one true rival (Ad-lib: To all that fear...) I'm gonna wait in grace, and just let go... And trust the only One... who really knows. (Outro) [Music Tag: Guitar slows down, back to the simple picking] ...the only one who knows. ...delete the bookmark. ...it's just You. (A final, melancholy guitar chord fades to silence.)