Life of Me

I’ve been standing under pressure that you couldn’t sit in, 
Like when the bills were due w no food coming in.
Family saying that I lost my mind off drugs, that I’m all screwed up. 
Nowhere else to go but to church in need of help just to hear them to say that  i need to go. 
Judging partial texts on pic sent from another phone, they didn’t believe that I deserved a home, or the need to share. 
Given up everything for no-one to care, criticizing myself, only made it clear, that people truly are no good and nothing to fear.
Terrifying possibilities had me scared to lose so just i gave up so i didnt have to find out; but then the LORD came in with the WIN for someone closer than a friend. 
And now I’m home but not alone with the one i love, this aint luck, this is called favor from up above that be given pride a shrug and lust a shove. 
YESHUA knows wassup, from da CA 559 on the 99 down the 10 to da 95 to now arrive in da FL. GOD knows me very well and i expect to see him coming to rebuke all the hell in and out a cell for those at home and in the field. 
I was just a kid looking for a place to fit it, and found myself fitting in the wrong place while the grave slowly pulling me in; first through the death of my kid, followed up by my friends, so tell me what you know about fittin in? 
You dont wanna play a part thats related to a spark in the dark at park cause the eyes of the opp was sharp and you was in da clear, whether you knew or not, youre end was right there, predestined from the moment you was playing with em bows and spears. It’s really quite clear why they dont want me here. 

Trap rap