Speak no Evil

Mentally unstable a dose of medication diagnosed as a schizo but I know that’s not me call me crazy documented 51-50 misunderstood pray to the lord he watches over me, and keeps the evil that I hear that speaks to me away from me

Feeling like a dark heavy cloud raining over me even on a sunny day, a day which everything is supposed to (be okay, be okay, be okay) happy for a second then it slowly (fades away, fades away, fades away)

I’m tossing and turning through the night it’s hard to sleep I don’t even want to close my eyes, never thought I would attempt to take my own life going crazy wondering why the women in my family would try to hide and keep me blind distracted by (noises, loud voices) draining every thought when I’m trying to focus can’t never feel hopeless murder on my mind I’m fed up going all out I won’t let up I’ll do anything to protect my family these girls and give my live so they can live peacefully death would heal me

So many voices in my head

heart still cold with so many tears that I shed always catching what feels like my last breath

Pray to the lord he takes my soul when I’m dead

Won’t look up to the sky until my spirit rest

It’s what I hear for years everyday voices telling me all my family getting abused, getting raped, sexually assaulted (I hear their screams, I hear their cries) they threaten to take my life kill me and everyone who tries Vocies got me losing my sanity this is not how you live your life

So many voices in my head

heart still cold with so many tears that I shed always catching what feels like my last breath

Pray to the lord he takes my soul when I’m dead

Won’t look up to the sky until my spirit rest

They told me it’s all false don’t believe the lies ignore everything and to keep strong cuz what you hear it’s not what it’s like the reason why I get defensive trying to get rid of this depression hearing voices screaming from all my family and these girls getting assaulted I see it’s hard to speak lord let my family not keep this from me I’ll give anything to help you live peacefully

This I know no women would forgive me for what they blame me and what I caused these voices seems like they would never leave lord forgive me for how I speak