Never Find That Feeling

Been so long

Same old room, same old glow

Everybody talk about love like a memory

I never even had it to let it go

They say it'll hit when you not lookin'

I been lookin' by default, still missin'

Couples in the grocery line, laughin'

I'm on my phone, scroll past it, act passive

Whole group chat sendin' ring pics

I'm sendin' memes, keep it light, never say it hits

Third wheeled so much I should charge rent

Uber home alone, smell her scent on the vent (yeah)

Told myself "focus on the grind first"

But the grind ain't hold you when your chest hurt

Mom ask, "When you gonna bring someone?"

I just shrug, change the subject, say I'm havin' fun

Maybe I'm the one love skips

Name not written on those lips

Every night I lie, say I'm fine enough

But I don't think I'll ever find love

Watch the world pair up in twos

I'm the empty seat beside you

Every song they sing sounds like made-up stuff

'Cause I don't think I'll ever find love (ever find love)

First crush, never knew I liked her

Too scared of a "no", so I stayed lighter

Played jokes, played cool, never played honest

She moved on, new town, new promise

Then there was you, late calls, last winter

Talked till three, you called me your sinner

Said I was "different", said I was "real"

Three months later, you said you "couldn't feel"

So I learned how to leave first, vanish

Block my own heart, self-sabotage habits

If they stare too long, I just laugh, change pace

Start pointin' out flaws till they walk from my space (yeah)

And it's sad 'cause I know what I'm doin'

Buildin' all these walls, then complainin' 'bout the ruins

Stand in my kitchen, two cups in the sink

One never used, that says more than I think

Maybe I'm the one love skips

Name not written on those lips

Every night I lie, say I'm fine enough

But I don't think I'll ever find love

Watch the world pair up in twos

I'm the empty seat beside you

Every song they sing sounds like made-up stuff

'Cause I don't think I'll ever find love (ever find love)

If it never comes, who do I blame?

Bad luck, past hurt, my last name?

Pray once, then laugh at myself, embarrassed

Talk tough all day, then the pillow get the damage (oh)

I keep sayin' it'll change when I'm older

But my coat still hangs on a lonely shoulder

If love is a door, guess mine stay shut

Key on the floor in a pile of dust

Maybe I'm the one love skips

Name not written on those lips

Every night I lie, say I'm fine enough

But I don't think I'll ever find love

Watch the world pair up in twos

I'm the empty seat beside you

Every song they sing sounds like made-up stuff

'Cause I don't think I'll ever find love

I don't think I'll ever find love