Never Find That Feeling

[Intro]
Been so long
Same old room, same old glow
Everybody talk about love like a memory
I never even had it to let it go
[Verse 1]
They say it'll hit when you not lookin'
I been lookin' by default, still missin'
Couples in the grocery line, laughin'
I'm on my phone, scroll past it, act passive
Whole group chat sendin' ring pics
I'm sendin' memes, keep it light, never say it hits
Third wheeled so much I should charge rent
Uber home alone, smell her scent on the vent (yeah)
Told myself "focus on the grind first"
But the grind ain't hold you when your chest hurt
Mom ask, "When you gonna bring someone?"
I just shrug, change the subject, say I'm havin' fun
[Chorus]
Maybe I'm the one love skips
Name not written on those lips
Every night I lie, say I'm fine enough
But I don't think I'll ever find love
Watch the world pair up in twos
I'm the empty seat beside you
Every song they sing sounds like made-up stuff
'Cause I don't think I'll ever find love (ever find love)
[Verse 2]
First crush, never knew I liked her
Too scared of a "no", so I stayed lighter
Played jokes, played cool, never played honest
She moved on, new town, new promise
Then there was you, late calls, last winter
Talked till three, you called me your sinner
Said I was "different", said I was "real"
Three months later, you said you "couldn't feel"
So I learned how to leave first, vanish
Block my own heart, self-sabotage habits
If they stare too long, I just laugh, change pace
Start pointin' out flaws till they walk from my space (yeah)
And it's sad 'cause I know what I'm doin'
Buildin' all these walls, then complainin' 'bout the ruins
Stand in my kitchen, two cups in the sink
One never used, that says more than I think
[Chorus]
Maybe I'm the one love skips
Name not written on those lips
Every night I lie, say I'm fine enough
But I don't think I'll ever find love
Watch the world pair up in twos
I'm the empty seat beside you
Every song they sing sounds like made-up stuff
'Cause I don't think I'll ever find love (ever find love)
[Bridge]
If it never comes, who do I blame?
Bad luck, past hurt, my last name?
Pray once, then laugh at myself, embarrassed
Talk tough all day, then the pillow get the damage (oh)
I keep sayin' it'll change when I'm older
But my coat still hangs on a lonely shoulder
If love is a door, guess mine stay shut
Key on the floor in a pile of dust
[Chorus]
Maybe I'm the one love skips
Name not written on those lips
Every night I lie, say I'm fine enough
But I don't think I'll ever find love
Watch the world pair up in twos
I'm the empty seat beside you
Every song they sing sounds like made-up stuff
'Cause I don't think I'll ever find love
I don't think I'll ever find love

rap, Moody hip hop ballad with male vocals, sparse detuned keys and deep sub bass. Swinging, head-nod drums under intimate, close-mic verses. Hook opens with airy vocal harmonies and wider pad chords, adding low-end slap and tambourine for lift. Subtle pitched-down ad-libs and filtered delays on last words to underline the loneliness., hip hop