Too Much To Hold

[Verse 1]
You said my love feels like a flood
I only meant to fill the cracks
I talk in tidal waves and jokes
Then wonder why you never text me back
I memorize the way you breathe
Then act like I don't even care
Build a fortress out of sarcasm
And dare you to climb the stairs
[Pre-Chorus]
Every time you lean in close
I flinch like it's a knife
Who taught me that affection
Is the same thing as a fight?
[Chorus]
I love too much to hold
So I throw you to the cold
Say "I'm fine
Just go"
When I need you the most
I burn every bridge
Then stand in the smoke
Screaming
"Why am I alone?"
I love too much to hold
Too much
Too much to hold
[Verse 2]
You catch the tremor in my hands
I laugh it off and pull away
I turn your kindness into debt
Then hate myself the rest of the day
I say "I'm better on my own"
Like a dare you won't accept
Then twist the silence into proof
That I'm easy to forget
[Pre-Chorus]
Every time you reach for me
I pull the fire alarm
Fill the hallway up with panic
Just to feel you in my arms
[Chorus]
I love too much to hold
So I throw you to the cold
Say "I'm fine
Just go"
When I need you the most
I burn every bridge
Then stand in the smoke
Screaming
"Why am I alone?"
I love too much to hold
Too much
Too much to hold
[Bridge]
Maybe I'm the broken glass
You keep stepping on at night
Cut you just for caring
Then ask you why you left the light
I don't wanna be this way
But wanting never made it right
I'm sorry that I taught you
That my distance equals "try"
[Chorus]
I love too much to hold
So I throw you to the cold
Say "I'm fine
Just go"
When I need you the most
I burn every bridge
Then stand in the smoke
Screaming
"Why am I alone?"
I love too much to hold
Too much
Too much to hold
(too much, too much)
I love too much to hold

Raw alt-emo band, male vocals. Verses start hushed: palm-muted guitars, roomy drums, bass barely throbbing. Tension rises through each line; pre-chorus brings tighter rhythms and subtle octave guitar. Chorus slams in with blown-out distorted walls, wide open drums, doubled lead vocal on the edge of cracking, gang shouts on key phrases. Bridge strips back to strained vocal and single clean guitar, then final chorus hits harder with extra feedback and stacked harmonies., emo, soft, raw