(Intro - whisper/screamed)
Yeah…
Don’t talk, don’t speak…
Can’t reach, can’t breathe…
(Verse 1)
Shadows in my room, they know me by name
Ashes on the floor, but I swear I ain’t changed
Mirror cracked back, I don’t like what I see
Smile stitched shut, pride bleeds silently
Can’t ask for help, that’s a chain on my neck
Every call for peace feel more like a threat
I drink just to blur out the thoughts in my head
But the silence gets louder when I’m off the meds
(Chorus)
I got a chokehold on my own throat
Tryna scream, but I won’t, no
Say I’m fine, but I don’t know
Cold world, and my soul froze
Fighting with these ghosts
And I still won’t fold
But the weight so bold
Man, it cut too close
(Verse 2)
Wake up feelin’ like I never went to sleep
Hollow in my chest where my heart used to beat
I talk to the walls, they talk back sometimes
But I never really listen, just nod and lie
Hit decline when my phone light blink
’Cause I don’t wanna talk, I don’t wanna think
I’d rather sink in the void I built
Than admit to the pain or the guilt I feel
(Bridge)
Hands in my pockets, eyes to the ground
If I open up, will I drown?
Can’t find the words, they rot in my throat
Truth too sharp, so I sugarcoat
(Chorus)
I got a chokehold on my own throat
Tryna scream, but I won’t, no
Say I’m fine, but I don’t know
Cold world, and my soul froze
Fighting with these ghosts
And I still won’t fold
But the weight so bold
Man, it cut too close
(Verse 3)
Say I’m alright, that’s a script I repeat
But my soul feel stuck on a glitching beat
Tryna find faith in an empty room
Where the air don’t move, just perfume fumes
I laugh in the dark ‘cause it hides my fear
Push everyone away then wish they were near
Keep my mask tight, yeah, I play my role
But my pride like a prison, swallows me whole
(Breakdown - whispered/screamed mix)
Pull me under, let me go
I can’t feel the undertow
Every high, another low
I don’t bend, I just implode
(Chorus - stripped down, echo-heavy)
I got a chokehold on my own throat
Tryna scream, but I won’t, no
Say I’m fine, but I don’t know
Cold world, and my soul froze
Fighting with these ghosts
And I still won’t fold
But the weight so bold
Man, it cut too close
(Extended Outro - ambient with distant vocals)
Pride got me silent… (fade in & out)
Words don’t come… they hide in my lungs…
Still standing, still cracked… still numb…
And I wonder if they knew, would they run…?
(Long reverb scream fading out…)
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