Love is not a weapon

I am on an edge

Living-barely.

A single thread of warmth

holding my sanity.

don't leave before the good parts.

they don't come first.

Her voice was velvet over violence

Soft enough to soothe

Sharp enough to carve my name

Into the dark beneath her truth.

I was loyal to the darkness.

I was faithful to the idea.

But truth will break the sweetest lie,

And help a heart stop asking why,

Because some pain begins to end When you stop being loyal to the story.

i am in between. unlearning everything

that got me here, live a little. you're not making it out alive anyway. take the risk. say the thing.

stop saving your life for later. rock bottom doesn't change a thing. it just turns the lights on.

so you can see what was always there. So stop killing yourself just to feel a little. love is not

a weapon.

your pain will tell the truth.

it's speaking the question

are you listening?

Not all words are true.

in patterns.

in reactions.

in the things you swear,

don't mean a fucking thing.

Silence can be terrifying,

when you have built a life

around emotional weather.

I was loyal to the darkness.

I was faithful to the idea.

But truth will break the sweetest lie,

And help a heart stop asking why,

Because some pain begins to end When you stop being loyal to the story.

i am in between. unlearning everything

that got me here, live a little. you're not making it out alive anyway. take the risk. say the thing.

stop saving your life for later. rock bottom doesn't change a thing. it just turns the lights on.

so you can see what was always there. So stop killing yourself just to feel a little. love is not

a weapon.

silence is also where you finally hear how much of yourself got buried just trying to keep the storm from turning toward you. When I see everything, that I need to withstand the weather. where the battles don't end.

where the fighting never stops.

the fucking damage keeps building.

I was loyal to the darkness.

I was faithful to the idea.

But truth will break the sweetest lie,

And help a heart stop asking why,

Because some pain begins to end When you stop being loyal to the story.

i am in between. unlearning everything

that got me here, live a little. you're not making it out alive anyway. take the risk. say the thing.

stop saving your life for later. rock bottom doesn't change a thing. it just turns the lights on.

so you can see what was always there. So stop killing yourself just to feel a little. love is not

a weapon.