[Verse 1]
Teeth marks in my tongue
Hold it in, hold it in
Bathroom mirror cracked
From every "just try to grin"
Pills lined on the sink
Call me weak, say it's a phase
Smile stitched to my face
While my hands shake like grenades
[Pre-Chorus]
You say "get over it"
Like it's a switch I missed
You never see the cliff
Under my skin
[Chorus]
They say it's my fault I'm breaking
Like I chose this drowning
Like I picked this storm
They say it's my fault, I'm faking
But I'm fighting, shaking
Just to feel warm
If happiness is war, I'm bleeding on the front line
If this is all my fault, why can't I turn off my mind
[Verse 2]
Woke up heavy as stone
Chest full of static and smoke
You laugh, "you're too young
To be this tired, this broke"
I claw through every day
Like nails on concrete walls
You call it attitude
I call it trying not to fall
[Pre-Chorus]
You say "just think good thoughts"
Like my brain lost the plot
You never feel the rot
Under my grin
[Chorus]
They say it's my fault I'm breaking
Like I chose this drowning
Like I picked this storm
They say it's my fault, I'm faking
But I'm fighting, shaking
Just to feel warm
If happiness is war, I'm bleeding on the front line
If this is all my fault, why can't I turn off my mind
[Bridge]
[Beat drops, guitars choke out, vocal alone over twisted bass]
I didn't ask for this
I didn't ask for this
(you still blame me, blame me)
[Screamed]
I am not your broken project
I am not your easy fix
Stop writing guilt across my wrist
I am tired of your script
[Breakdown]
(Screamed)
You say it's my fault
You say it's my fault
Say it till your throat runs dry
I still wake up wanting to die
You say it's all in my head
Like I'm not hanging by a thread
If it's my choice, then why the chains
Why the storms inside my veins
[Chorus]
They say it's my fault I'm breaking
Like I chose this drowning
Like I picked this storm
They say it's my fault, I'm faking
But I'm fighting, shaking
Just to feel warm
If happiness is war, I'm bleeding on the front line
If this is all my fault, come live one day in my mind