Not enough for you

I gave you my mornings, I gave you my nights

Gave you the pieces I don’t even like

Held every storm when you couldn’t stand

Bled out my pride just to hold your hand

I swallowed my anger, buried my pain

Stood in the fire, danced in the rain

Tried to be stronger, tried to be tough

But somehow it’s never, ever enough

You say I’m the reason you’re breaking apart

Like I’m the villain inside of your heart

Every tear falling down from your face

Feels like another mistake that I made

It’s always my fault, no matter the truth

I bend till I break just to give you proof

I changed who I am, I do what I can

Still I’m the shadow, not your man

I give you my soul, I give you my love

But nothing I do is ever enough

Tell me what more I’m supposed to be

When losing myself is all that I see

I learned how to silence the voice in my head

The one that keeps screaming, “I’m better off dead”

But I stay for you, I stay and I fight

Even when I’m disappearing at night

You say that you love me, then push me away

Say I’m the problem at the end of the day

I carry the weight of every wrong

Like I was the reason all along

You say I don’t listen, I don’t understand

But I’d give you the world if it fit in my hands

Every word you throw hits like a knife

Cuts a little deeper than the last time

It’s always my fault, no matter the truth

I bend till I break just to give you proof

I change who I am, I do what I can

Still I’m the shadow, not your man

I give you my soul, I give you my love

But nothing I do is ever enough

Tell me what more I’m supposed to be

When losing myself is all that I see

If loving you means I’m the blame

Then carve it in stone beside my name

I’ll wear the guilt like a second skin

it burns me within

Smile outside while I’m caving in

If I’m the storm in your sky above

Why does it hurt this much to love?

It’s always my fault, that’s what you say

So I’ll take the blame and fade away

I gave you my heart, my breath, my trust

Turned myself straight into dust

If love is a test I always fail

Then maybe I’m broken beyond repair

I gave you my all, I gave you my best…

But I guess my best

Was never enough.