I wake up tired of breathing air,
Same four walls, same dead stare
Every promise turned to rust,
Every “it gets better” lost my trust
I gave time, I gave blood,
Still came up empty, misunderstood
They say life’s a gift, I never agreed,
Feels more like a debt choking me
My voice don’t shake, my hands don’t pray,
I already made peace with the things I say
I said I’m gonna off myself,
Not loud, not wild, just flat
Like stating weather, stating facts,
Like something you don’t take back
I didn’t say it for a reaction,
Didn’t say it to be saved
It’s just the only honest sentence
I had the strength left to say
I watched the world keep spinning on,
Like I was gone before I’m gone
People laugh, people sleep,
No one feels this ache in me
I tried to bend, I tried to fight,
Tried to survive another night
But hope’s a word that lost its shape,
And faith just learned how to break
No signs, no light, no final plea,
Just a tired man and certainty
I said I’m gonna off myself,
Said it calm, said it clean
No poetry, no hero’s end,
Just an exit in between
I didn’t ask to be forgiven,
Didn’t ask to be understood
Some stories don’t get fixed at the end,
Some just end because they could
If you’re looking for a meaning here,
There isn’t one to find
Sometimes people just get worn down
By time after time after time
I said I’m gonna off myself,
And nothing answered back
No voice from above, no sudden truth,
Just silence filling the cracks
If this is where the song cuts off,
There’s no lesson in the fade
Just the weight of words hanging there—
The last thing I said
No closure.
No peace.
Just quiet.