Weight I Carry

Woke up to silence screaming in my head

Another ghost beside me in the empty bed

Memories hit like rain I can’t outrun

Every day feels darker than the last one

I smile in the mirror, but it cracks like glass

Trying to move forward while I’m stuck in the past

I’m carrying the weight of what I lost

Every word I never said still counts the cost

I’m breathing, but I don’t feel alive

Just surviving nights I don’t wanna survive

If pain is a language, I speak it the best

I’m not broken—just tired, depressed

People say time heals, but it moves too slow

Every step forward pulls me back below

I hear your voice when the room gets cold

Like a story that ended before it was told

I scream in my thoughts, but I whisper out loud

Drowning alone in a faceless crowd

I’m carrying the weight of what I lost

Every promise shattered, every bridge I crossed

I’m breathing, but I don’t feel alive

Just surviving nights I don’t wanna survive

If pain is a language, I speak it the best

I’m not broken—just tired, depressed

Maybe one day I’ll learn how to let this go

Maybe light still lives in the cracks below

I don’t need saving, I just need rest

A moment of peace in this heavy chest

I’m carrying the weight, but I’m still here

Even through the fog, even through the fear

I may bend, I may break, I may fall apart

But I’m still breathing with a bruised-up heart

If hope is a spark in this endless mess

I’ll guard it quietly through the depression

I’m still here…

Even if it doesn’t feel like it yet.