Fake Guidance

Fake Guidance

I spoke to God even though he doesn’t care how I feel

I spoke to God even though I don’t even know if he’s real

All my prayers unanswered yet still I would kneel

I sent letters upon letters yet I find them returned and sealed

I ask him for guidance

But all of my questions are met with silence

I can’t tell am I praying to a king or a tyrant

I try to keep these demons locked in their cage

But all they do is claw and riot

Fake guidance——

I’m not praying to a king but a tyrant——

I don’t know if he even listens anymore——

He’s been voiceless——

The only sound I hear comes from my vocal cords——

Fake guidance——

I expected so much more——

I’ve been trying to come home but every time I’m greeted with a locked door——

I can’t even tell if I’m awake

Please tell me what’s real and what’s fake

God I’m starting to fall apart I’m fixing to break

Is this what hell is like please satan let me escape

Is this earth supposed to be a heaven God please send me away

I want you to love me but you never show me that you do

Please God I’m down here waiting for you

I’m done getting down on my knees

I’m done asking what I should need

I’m done sending you these letters

Until then I’ll be waiting for you to wake me up

Let me know when I am better.

Fake guidance——

I’m not praying to a king but a tyrant——

I don’t know if he even still listens anymore——

He’s been voiceless——

The only sound I hear comes from my vocal cords——

Fake guidance——

I expected so much more——

I’ve been trying to come home but every time I’m greeted with a locked door——

Fake guidance——