I Just Float

I ticked every box like I meant to

Got the keys, the vows, the view

Friends who mean it when they say they love me

Still I sleep in ‘til the light cuts through

I remember joy like it’s muscle memory

But my body won’t follow my mind

Like I’m stuck in a scene that keeps resetting

And I don’t care what I’ll find

They say, “you’re so lucky, you’ve got it made”

But I’d trade this peace for a little ache

’Cause nothing’s enough when the spark won’t light

When the highs don’t hit and the lows don’t bite

I’ve had more than most, but I still feel small

Like I’m just a guest in the life I built tall

And the worst part is, I don’t even fall

I just float

And that’s the loneliest feeling of all

I scroll through dreams like a shopping list

Pick a new one every week

But even the best ones taste like paper

By the time they hit my teeth

I want to want something so badly

But all my fires burn cold

And if I can’t believe in meaning

Then what’s left to hold?

They say, “it’ll come, just give it time”

But what if I’ve wasted every sign?

’Cause nothing’s enough when the spark won’t light

When the highs don’t hit and the lows don’t bite

I’ve had more than most, but I still feel small

Like I’m just a guest in the life I built tall

And the worst part is, I don’t even fall

I just float

And that’s the loneliest feeling of all

Maybe there’s no grand design

Maybe it’s just blood and time

But I still check the sky at night

Just in case I’ve missed a sign

I used to cry at sunsets, now I drive right past

Thinking, how much longer will this detour last?