Took the Polaroids, left the nail holes

I shaved my head ‘cause you joked I wouldn’t

Now I just look like the joke you abandoned

Got your sweater in my closet like a ghost

Smells like regret and laundry soap

Your playlist still autoplayed

So I threw my phone into the lake

You said, “Let’s never change,”

But I guess I did, or maybe you did first

(I hate that I still check your birth chart)

You said you liked the rain

But you left when it poured

Said my overthinking was “kinda cute”

Now I’m screaming at the floor

I kept your favorite cereal

But I can’t eat it anymore

(‘Cause it tastes like you

and I don’t know who that is now)

Your cat still stares like it blames me

I fed it twice, is that not enough?

I watched your plants die in real time

Guess they missed your voice too much

You always said “Don’t make me a metaphor”

So I wrote you as a math equation instead

(X = the sum of what we lost

minus the things we never said)

I kissed someone new and they laughed the same way you used to

So I ran a red light just to feel something true

(And the cop let me go when he saw my face)

Guess heartbreak gets you out of tickets too

You said you liked the rain

But you left when it poured

Took the Polaroids, left the nail holes

Guess that’s what walls are for

I still talk to you in lowercase

‘Cause I’m not sure I deserve to yell

(But I still scream in every song

And hope your ears start to ring in hell)

You said you liked the rain—

Then why’d you run?

Why’d you run?

Why’d you run when it poured?