When?

Sleep the whole ass day away 

I know that I am not okay 

Beer and weed and nicotine 

Cannot fill the space between 

The highs that I hold onto 

That sometimes help me through 

These jokes I make, smiles I flash 

All a front to hide my crash 

Will I ever be okay? 

What do I do til then? 

Will these feelings go away? 

Will I make it until then? 

When?!

Sitting, waiting for the day 

All good feelings go away 

Paranoid of being content 

To deeper lows I’ll descend 

My brain waves do not respond 

To this list of pros and cons 

On paper it’s clear to see 

There’s Something wrong inside of me 

Will I ever be okay?

What do I do til then?

Will these feelings go away?

Will I make it until then?

When?!

Every day that goes by, I feel the light in my eyes

Begin to subside

My face muscles strain, as they hide the pain

That I keep inside

I can’t let it out, I can’t keep it in

can’t move on, can’t pretend

Will I ever be okay?

What do I do til then?

Will these feelings go away?

Will I make it until then?

When?!

Is this the end?