That’s on me

What hurts is the fact that people always treat me as if im disposable, but life goes on, people come & go & where i once saw forever is now just a faded memory, another “lesson accomplished” these days it takes more than just love to make a relationship work & I’ve been so busy healing others that i haven’t put myself first, so tell me whats worse, loving someone while let myself hurt? or the pain of losing them when i knew it wouldnt work? I’ve given up everything i had, even when i had NOTHING, thinking maybe it could truly mean something “right?” But i know now that i cant give someone the love that i havent given myself, i wont keep doing that, I’ve been way too unappreciated & its not on you, cause thats a standard that i never held you to, i cant teach you how to love me in the ways i love myself, so if also fitting my needs is a problem, then may you go & find somebody else, you cant appreciate love if you don’t understand the value, it’s hard to value people without boundaries… thats on me,