[Intro]
(HVENLY...)
I wasn’t playing a role
I wasn’t pretending
This is just me
How I love
How I show up
How I stay
[Hook]
I loved you like a wife before I ever had the title
Showed up like forever was already decided
You called it pressure, I called it devotion
You called it too much, I called it real emotion
Now I see it clear, it was never aligned
I was building a home, you were killing time
[Verse 1]
I check on you when nobody asks me to
I care in ways I don’t get back from you
I remember things you don’t even say twice
That’s just how I move when I love in my life
I don’t love halfway, I don’t love small
I don’t disappear when things get hard or fall
I stay in the storm, I stay in the fight
Even when it hurts me deep inside
But you took that softness, took that care
Like it would always just be there
Like I wouldn’t notice the distance grow
Like I wouldn’t feel it when you go cold
[Pre-Chorus]
And I tried to explain it
Tried to make you see
But you never understood
What you had in me
[Chorus]
I loved you like a wife before I ever had the title
Showed up like forever was already decided
You called it pressure, I called it devotion
You called it too much, I called it real emotion
Now I see it clear, it was never aligned
I was building a home, you were killing time
[Verse 2]
I wasn’t asking for perfect, just effort and truth
Some consistency back in what I gave you
Instead I got silence, mixed signals, delay
Love only showing up when it fit your day
And I kept thinking maybe you’d grow into it
Maybe you’d meet me halfway through it
But love don’t grow when it’s one-sided energy
And I lost myself trying to make you see me
I can’t keep bleeding for someone unsure
Can’t keep giving to a door that won’t open for sure
So I’m stepping back even though it hurts
Even though I gave you my whole universe
[Bridge]
(Oh-oh)
This ain’t bitterness
This is clarity
I gave real love
You gave convenience to me
And I won’t shrink down
To be easier to hold
I’d rather walk away
Than stay half-loved, half-known
[Final Chorus]
I loved you like a wife before I ever had the title
Showed up like forever was already decided
You called it pressure, I called it devotion
You called it too much, I called it real emotion
Now I see it clear, it was never aligned
I was building a home, you were killing time
[Outro]
(HVENLY...)
I don’t regret how I loved
I just regret who I gave it to....