Velvet Ropes & Empty Rooms

They say the crowd gon' cure it

So I chased that roar like a rumor

Flash bulbs burst in my pupils

Still can’t light up this tumor

Signed my name in the gloss

Mama framed that page in the kitchen

But her voice on read in my phone

While I fill this hole with attention

Gold plaque staring from the wall

Like, "You good?"

I stare back, lie with a grin

"My god, I'm hood"

But the flight home’s always one tap away

I just scroll through the pics

Then I put it away

Love, fame, longing

All in the same apartment

Heart on the guestlist, waiting in line

I got the world in my pocket

Still can’t call what I want it

Why does it feel like you’re the one left behind?

Love, fame, longing

Why they all hit at the same damn time?

Blue check, got it last June

Blue mood, that came by August

Every room knowin’ my face

But the one name I need feel the farthest

[low vocal register] Bed full of bodies, none of ’em you

Teeth all glow, but the truth ain’t cute

I put pain in a post, fans call it art

You call, I freeze, can’t answer my part

They clap when I bleed on the stage

But you want me calm, want me aged

Want me home in a hoodie

Not a headline in a cage

I keep betting this buzz gon’ numb it

Every sunrise proves I’m bluffin’

I said, "Soon as I make it, I’ll come back"

Then I made it and the map went black

I got love in the comments, love in the crowd

But yours is the only one I can’t act out

[whispered vocals] Tell me who I am when the lights cut

When the gate closes, when the ride shuts

Is it worth all the noise in my veins

If it costs me your name?